Today I met up with someone who I used to know, me! When I awoke this morning, it was different. Like a beautiful butterfly exemplifying happiness and strength. I couldn't reach out and touch her, but I could see her.
My battle with the asshole named SMA will never end, this is true and I accept the challenge. The cloke of dark depression that was and still is impeding my attack is lifting, ever so slightly.
Yesterday was the most near to perfect day that I had in a long time. In 2005 I decided that it was time to step it up in the beauty department, so I chose an up-scale salon. At this salon, I had the pleasure of welcoming Angela into my life. Her genius and creativity gave me the style I was looking for! More importantly, I made a dear friend who is now one of the most important people in my life. I love her dearly and value her friendship. Yesterday she came over to my home for my monthly "grooming" appointment. As usual she did a fantastic job of my hair and made me feel like a million bucks. More importantly, I was able to spend time with someone with whom I have mutual support and caring. It makes an amazing difference to have friends who truly understand and do not judge you. I am truly blessed to have Angela in my life.
Following my beauty session, Tim and I had plans to join a group of wonderful people for dinner. This made me afraid. It has been months since my body has allowed me to follow through with evening plans. I have been an epic failure in this department as of late, saddly I always have had to back out because I simply wasn't able. Obviously this led to incredible self-loathing.
With all of this being said, last night was different! I donned an outfit that reflects my unique sense of fashion and did it! I enjoyed the company of several wonderful people. Although I was still in a great deal of pain, I was alive and free! I was once again in the fold!
Today I feel a new beginning. A beginning of hope and joy. That beautiful butterfly is still out of my reach, but not for long.
I'm glad to hear that you are having a good day today Laurie! Hopefully the upward swing will continue. Question - when we do our 5 senses unit in science we talk about disabilities and how people cope. Would you like to talk to a bunch of rowdy grade 1s? We have 5 classes that would love to hear from you.
ReplyDeleteLove you! Karen